who the hell is….’Almost~Alice’….?!

I am not a survivor. I am currently a victim.

I blog becuz I am a coward.

I blog becuz I allowed myself to be isolated.

there’s s’posed to be fringe benefits when you are someone’s “kept woman”. I’m not seeing what they are.

Bondage & Discipline isn’t any fun when there’s no sex involved. it’s just being held captive, at that point.

I would never let a man trap me like this. that definitely was not my problem.

my husband wasn’t a sociopath- he was just a Bully and physically assaulted me. but he didn’t scare me.  he was just bigger than me and was only able to catch me off guard in the beginning.

I am Homeless 4 years becuz they said I was “brave”.

I wish I was a coward that day too.

I was blind-sided that:

copyright 2014 by 'Almost~Alice'

copyright 2014 by ‘Almost~Alice’

  1. I would have a sociopath
  2. my sociopath would come in the form of 4 women that I trusted
  3. I would have more than 1 sociopath
  4. i hafta know what sociopath even means….

apparently, sociopaths are also chameleons.

and it’s possible that the ‘better’ sociopath’s come without peni….

I allowed myself to be vulnerable and at the mercy of a soul pirate whose window dressing is just as cute and adorable as your favorite aunti or gran.

I blog because I am alone.

I blog becuz 1 of my 5 Greatest Fears is Invisibility.

I blog becuz I’m practicing my voice (again).

I blog becuz my sociopath has me so very confused.

I blog becuz I need to hear what others see.

I blog becuz I havent been hugged by a real human being in almost two years, and that was done last by a complete stranger.

I blog so I don’t forget who I was.

I blog becuz I might make it back- if I can hold back invisibilty long enough.

copyright 2014 by 'Almost~Alice'

copyright 2014 by ‘Almost~Alice’

you could say, my blog is like a bookmark or breadcrumbs.

and seriously- if you can still hear me…..

I’m pretty sure I found the remains of Hansel & Gretel in the compost bin.

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17 comments on “who the hell is….’Almost~Alice’….?!
  1. InfiniteZip says:

    I love your honesty and writing is being brave. U r never alone as you have me and some eighty other followers too from what I can see. I remember you were giddy with fifty:) hug the ducks for me and the kitties too….do you really eat the eggs? Have never had duck eggs before, and I don’t like to eat duck or goose:) smile sistah, I am listening:)

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    • its funny- i joined that zero to hero challenge and ive been trying to figure out how to get that post you just read from ‘here’ to ‘there’ still…giggle! there’s a place for it, i just can’t make it obey me and go there! i wanted to ask Teela, Ali and your help in selecting out my ‘dirtier’ posts to put in a different blog or page, cuz it tears me up to see my readership drop as i walk thru ‘the Valley of the Shadow of Death’… it only adds to my ‘Invisibility Complex’ and i find it anything but ‘supportive’. i just thought its time i have the ‘nice’ ‘storefront’ type blog for the ‘professional’ writing im working on, SEPARATE from ‘The Darkside’…. the stuff i write for therapy or support i could keep it’round back, so to speak…. like a figurative ‘Speak’ (Easy, of the 20’s)

      am i still making any sense? or is it too late for me?

      will answer duck questions later btw!

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  2. Tela says:

    Why would you want to separate your post from the ‘darkside’?? We are ALL human! We have good days, and we have really shitty days! You write your OWN feelings, not to be judged, not to be criticized but to get those words out! As far as blogging ‘becuz my sociopath has me so very confused”…i think every single person ever involved with a sociopath can relate to that statement. Don’t sugar coat your post! All of us our walking our own path’s that at times are in the shadows of Hell. Great honest post! ❤

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  3. oaktreelane says:

    Almost Alice, love your post, you are not invisible and you are not alone. Here’s another hug from a complete stranger cc 🙂

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  4. chrissyfaery36 says:

    I absolutely agree with oaktreelane, you’re not alone 🙂 I consider you a friend even though we haven’t met, and if I lived closer it’d be hugs for you and your furbabies all round! 🙂 xxx

    Liked by 1 person

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