A Letter On The Wing

an excerpt from a letter to a Friend, I just wrote:

“….You inquire after me -So Sweet that you are!- but i’m sad to report that i currently suffer from loneliness, depression & despair.

 …the Loneliness….   Swim-with-Abbi-in-the-Sound-006.jpg 
  it seems that to have any acquaintance (no real Friends to be found, unless you count Ducks!) here at all, One must be a drug addict or alcoholic!  of which i am neither.  They appear to be the only Ones  that have “Friends”.  i use that word loosely, in this post, as you shall hopefully soon see,  an essay i’m currently writing on the differences between ‘friends’, ‘those that care’ and ‘acquaintances’.  those 3 divisions of those that People this Rock, seem to be uniformly, unanimously & world-widely misunderstood!
 
…The Depression…
also, you should know, that from the months of October to March have been really hard for me to endure for at least the last 4 years in the least, and 5 decades at the most. that block of time is half an Earth’s year, and always an Eternity for me…. i hate holidays.  period.  and i also NEVER use the word ‘hate’.
in my Life, holidays have been used against me as ‘Punishment’, ‘torture’, and tools for ‘control’… i have been abused just moments before holidays to justify my not ‘earning’ gifts. if there were gifts, they were blatantly less in value than my sibs or peers received to stand as a monument to all that were present, that i was Less Worthy Than They.  not too mention that due to the timing of my Birth, i have always been told that, “Hey! You get a ‘Two-fer’!  This One Gift is for Both your birthday and Christmas!”
How exactly was that s’posed to be the ‘bonus’ that was implied?!?!
Then came the day, two years past that, my own OffSpring, my own Hatch and Those i gave good upbringing… Forgot me Complete. for 15 years, i’ve paid good cash to keep a cell phone number where i ALWAYS could be reached, that hasn’t made a sound or a peep in more than 24 Moons….
…The Despair…WoodNymph-Her-Duck.jpg
i can’t afford the permanent ink on my skin, so i’ve written in pen the Words of the Two Wisest Doctors i believe have ever existed~
“EveryBody Lies.” and “EveryBody Leaves.”
 
(Dr. Gregory House, M.D. and Doctor Who, respectively.)
Next, you asked about my comfort, so i’ll mention that the FairWood where i live began its defrosting, day before yester, and things drip, nor does the ground crunch under my Ducks feet, anymore.  which is awesome, as i’ve burned the last wood that i was allotted, from the big ‘community’ shared pile on the corner that is now gone.  not too much of a problem til the next sub-freeze (we were down in the TEENS this last week!), as my love for clothes can bundle me thru!!  Layers! & Layers!  one of the chapters i write in my manuscript of “Off-The-Grid Girl:  101”.  yet, for long-term personal comfort, ‘rain’ is not really my Friend, but my Duck grows thirsty, his personal rain barrel has grown light, he and complains that his pond has grown small (‘diving-duck’ is now very spoiled!).  so, yes, i must agree that rain could be good at this moment, if just for a bit.
and to end your post, you tease me with curried delights!  as you have your top-10 gemstones to keep, i have my top-10 of herbs & spices, on which curry is on the top!  do me a favor, next time you sit with your Mumm to enjoy another foreign treat, put just a dab on a small tea saucer and set it at the empty chair ‘tween you both, and Remember me’, as you eat!!”
Much Love!
~V~
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5 comments on “A Letter On The Wing
  1. I feel so sad after reading this x

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  2. InfiniteZip says:

    Yellow Miss Violet, just read your letter and I will respond shortly…stay warm silly girl, would hate to hear of a Violet Popsicle or a quackcicle. When I am near a beach I shall watch for a note in a bottle but in the meantime I am happy to hear your words that always make me smile. Am pondering the gyrls with ducks….and I have no,friends with ducks anymore exceptin for you. Nor geese, chickens, yes….will say more in a letter dear sister but be well and hang loose with many layers of course😊

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